Some of us are built differently. We can’t abandon what calls to us, even when the culture around us doesn’t value it. Especially then.

 

 Because it’s hard to value yourself and your calling when everything outside is telling you it’s not enough, not safe, not worth the risk.

 

I’ve been unconsciously questioning that choice for years. Then I took my daughter to a uni open day and everything unconscious suddenly became personified for me in physical reality.

 

Somewhere on that drive, listening to audiobooks, I heard Jane Roberts talk about how she first started channeling Seth. And I realised: she didn’t choose this either. She tried to ignore it. Couldn’t. It grabbed hold and wouldn’t let go.

 

Listening to her, I recognised myself. Not in the specifics—Seth and the beings I work with are very different. But in the experience. The weird stuff that just happens when you’re a medium, a psychic, a channel—whatever the hell we should call ourselves. The Ouiji board experiences. The mediumship. The ghosts starting to take physical form. The skepticism. The refusal to pretend it isn’t happening.

 

 

 

Years ago, I stood at a fork in the road. My family wanted me to be an “ologist”—go to uni, train to be a child psychologist, become the first in my family to get a degree. Earn legitimacy the culture’s way.

 

 And to be honest, I really leaned into that idea myself. My highest value was—and still is—service. Being a child psychologist felt like I could truly serve in a really good way.

 

Or, I could follow this calling—the psychic work, the mystical experiences, mediumship, seeing ghost – all the stuff that just happened to me—all the woo.

 

I chose the woo. And unconsciously, I’d been questioning that choice until recently.

 

This trip to my daughter’s uni open day is where it all surfaced.

That’s where I met my alternative self. She was a professional, head of the department. Smart clothes. Intelligent. Confident. 

 

The culture would have told her: you are significant. You’ve made it. You’ve earned your worth.

 

And watching her, all my low self-worth came up. In our culture’s eyes, she was significant. The strength of the feeling really shocked me. Now I realise it had come up to be released once and for all.

 

Later, talking to my daughter about it, something came out of my mouth: “Asking me not to be woo and true to my direct experiences is like asking you not to be transgender.”

 

That was my clarifying and truly liberating moment.

 

Because all those times I’ve actually worked with psychotherapists, psychiatrists, mental health nurses as my peers—they were incredulous and fascinated by my natural ability to just see and know stuff. They felt it working. They didn’t need me to prove it.

 

And there’s another piece to this: the panic attacks I had way back, showed up on the train to university. Once I decided I wasn’t doing university, they stopped. The panic attacks, for me, were my soul’s way of saying “abort abort, wrong path, wrong path.”

 

 

Some of my clients come to me because they can’t access their wild self yet. Some come because they’re hiding it. Most come because they’re carrying the weight of choosing something that doesn’t fit the culture’s idea of success or safety.

 

Your wild self—whatever it looks like—will ruffle feathers. Maybe it’s channeling, mediumship and energy work like mine. Maybe it’s something entirely mainstream. Doesn’t matter. If it’s truly yours, it will conflict with something: your parents’ dreams for you, your religion, your culture’s ideas about who you should be. Or the internal systems you built to stay safe—the stories you created about who you need to be to belong, to be loved, to be safe.

 

And that conflict is the whole point. Because the moment you say yes to your wild self, you’re saying no to those systems. That takes courage. It also takes loneliness sometimes. We need a ton of support – well I know I have! 

 

When my clients come for channeling and energy work, they’re often calling it “purpose.” Some are seeking escape from anxiety. Some are questioning: Am I allowed this? We can gain answers and clarity about what’s going on underneath the surface in one session. Real clarity.

 

But the real transformation? It takes time. It’s literally like giving birth to a new way of life. We allow nine months for babies. But we expect ourselves to do it overnight.

 

That’s where the deeper work lives—the integration, the embodiment, the actual living of your wild self. That’s what takes patience, support, and time.